Back to The Blogesphere

I am returning to my blog after a long absence. I re-read some of these posts and am stunned by the familiarity of each as I now, once again, search for work. My last job-related post was just prior to starting the executive assistant position I held for over five years. It was a good run, but when I was laid off, fairly unexpectedly, I was relieved. I knew I needed to move on. But I faltered in my first effort at another job. I stumbled and ultimately gave up. I'm a people pleaser and I wasn't pleasing my boss. I wasn't pleasing myself, actually. I was distracted and lacked the necessary focus. I still can't explain what happened to me. I was fearful, I think, and became increasingly less effective as I worried more about failure. The notion terrifies me. The thought that I might fail. It's problematic as it keeps me from trying new things, and thwarts my creative energies. It's paralyzing. So now, without fear, I'll revisit my blog. Returning to that unemployed place that's become all too familiar to me. The job hunt is on, and I'm looking to redesign my parachute.